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Chasing Truth: Chapter 6

Posted on 25/07/2014

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The wind whistled around her as Mari pushed through the wrought-iron gate. She slipped her thumbs through the loops of her jeans as she wound her way through the unofficial and uneven paths barely lit by the slowly rising sun. Her feet didn’t falter. The trek was embedded in her very heels.

She didn’t stop until she reached the top of a small hill overlooking the ocean. She stopped there, closing her eyes and inhaling deeply as the wind played with her hair. A faint smile touched her lips when she turned around.

“Hey Mom. You’ve got a view today. It feels great up here.” She laughed softly and sank down into the grass. “You should’ve seen the ‘little gathering’ Raoul threw together. Iago was there. You remember he’s mayor now. I think the whole island was there. I’m pretty sure I danced with everyone too. You would’ve loved it.”

“I got back into touring yesterday. My aches have aches but it was worth it. We had a pretty good group so no one too obnoxious. Joe’s coconut shrimp is still beyond words of course. Jules is still snarky and Lani’s still Lani. It’s been a whirlwind since I’ve been back.”

She sighed and looked over at the marble headstone.

Miranda Drake. The gift of her life and love live on.

Sometimes she could still see it when she closed her eyes; the thick black fog choking out clean air, flames licking at the quaint place she’d always known as home. The fire had eaten the house faster than anything she ever witnessed in her seven years of life. The beach became the only place she felt safe. Raoul woke many nights only to find her in or seated just within reach of the waves.

“It’s good to be back. It really is. I just…sometimes I guess I feel like there’s something…more. Something missing. I just don’t know what. I didn’t find it at school either. Whatever it is.” She sighed and stretched out onto her back to stare up at the sky. “I thought getting away might tell me something I didn’t know. It was probably good to get away too. Papa and Allie needed time to do their whole married thing and I needed to learn how to not be his shadow.” She smiled to herself. “She’s good to him, Mom. You’d love her.”

“I missed this pretty much the entire time I was gone though. Did you? Was he amazing enough to make up for it? Or did it suck and he was just worth it?”

She restlessly rolled over onto her stomach. “I wonder about him every now and then. My father. You know, the guy you loved enough to run away with. Not often, but enough. It just would’ve been nice to know who he was at least. Not that it matters if he doesn’t want me. I’ve got Papa and Allie. That should be enough. That is enough. I’m just curious, which Papa says I got from you so you can’t blame me.”

Only a few details had been shared about Mari’s father. She knew that her mother had left the island with him before she was born and that she’d returned several years later with a four year old Mari in tow. She liked to think that meant she’d at least known him at some point. Then again that meant he knew she existed and didn’t care.

She sighed, tugging herself up into a sitting position. She didn’t start at the sound of someone coming up the hill behind her.

“Hey Papa.”

“You got out here pretty early.” Raoul came to sit beside her, his eyes fixed on his sister’s grave.

“Today’s busy and I haven’t had a chance to get up here yet.”

He nodded as he drew his legs up and rested his arms around his knees. After a moment he angled his head to look at her.

“Thinking about your father?”

“Sometimes I just wish I knew who he was. Just to know. You know I hate mysteries.”

He chuckled softly. “Sometimes it’s best for some things to remain unknown. The greatest mystery is one that remains unsolved.”

“She loved him. Whatever else was true about him, she loved him. Even I know how much Mom loved this place, but she left it for him. That has to count for something, doesn’t it?”

“But she also came back,” he reminded her gently. “And that counts for something too.”

“That’s probably true. Sometimes I just want to know for myself, I guess.”

“Have you started looking for him?”

She heard the catch in his voice despite his attempt to be casual. Scooting closer, she rested her head against his shoulder. “No, Papa. I haven’t and I probably never will. Things get so busy around here and it’s not like I really have a place to start. It’s not a big deal. I just wonder from time to time.”

“You’ll let me know if you change your mind.”

“You’ll be the first.”

That seemed to settle him and he dipped his head to kiss her forehead. “You’ve got more tours lined up today.”

“I wanted a chance to work with the new guy. He has one for this morning so I’ll tag along. I’ll take two out on my own later and join Keon at two.”

“I won’t even bother asking you if you’re ready. We’ll do a tour together next week if you can make the time.”

Her head shot up. “Camping?”

“Hiking at least.”

“You really know the way to a woman’s heart. I see now how you managed to snag Allie.”

He laughed and swatted at her. “First you’ll have to get through the schedule you’ve given yourself.”

“Piece of cake.” She glanced down at her watch and sighed.

“Time to get moving?”

“Time to get moving.”

“Go on then. And squeeze us in for dinner tonight, will you?”

She grinned and kissed his cheek before pushing to her feet. “Of course, Papa. See you later. Bye Mom.”

She jogged down the hill, letting her momentum carry her. She slowed down at the bottom and looked back to Raoul. He hadn’t moved from his spot by the grave. He was the man who took her in without hesitation, sacrificed for her, cherished and adored her. Whoever her father was, she didn’t need him. She had more than enough father in Raoul Drake.

With that settled in her mind, she took off back toward the house. She had a full day ahead of her and hiking with Tyler to get ready for.

<< Chapter 5 || Chapter 7 >>

On to the Next One?

Posted on 16/11/2013

Petra is twenty years young, bright-eyed and ready for male friends after  depriving herself of their intriguing complexities.

Eddie she meets first. He’s perfect in every sense of the word. Tall, dark and definitely good to look at. Plus he’s incredibly talented! Not only does he play the guitar and sing… gosh, he leads worship on Sundays and Wednesdays. He’s sensitive, in touch with his emotions. Undoubtedly, Petra’s completely taken by him. One thing; he’s got a long list of ex-friends. Uh-hmm, you heard right. Of all the people Petra’s heard him talk about, they’ve all offended him in some way and he doesn’t hesitate telling her about just how. Not wanting to add herself to that list and lose such an incredible friend, Petra gears up for placating and accommodating Eddie… until she drops her guard and speaks out of turn. Without a moment’s notice, Eddie’s checked the list, scribbled her name in black, permanent marker and promptly kicked her out of his life.

Blindsided, Petra makes a vow to stay away from guys like Eddie and dusts off the remnants of that failed friendship. On to the next one.

Mike‘s perfect on paper! He’s handsome, kind, softhearted and oh boy, is he smart! What’s even better? He’s not overly emotional and has his head screwed on correctly. Sold! Petra’s got several years behind her and is ready to begin a new friendship, even if Mike’s a bit more reserved than she expected. Ignoring his tight-lipped responses, she can at least count her lucky stars that there are no drama theatrics since Mike’s a rational human being. Relaxing a little too much, Petra’s blindsided yet again when Mike blows a fuse, listing off all her offenses. She has no idea when or how she’s offended Mike but he certainly doesn’t hesitate telling her to the day, hour and millisecond of said offense. Barrages of “why can’t you”, “if you could just”, “everything would be okay if you could”, “why are you” echo like loud, nagging gongs in her head as she staggers back to catch her balance or at least catch her breath.

Thankfully, she manages to escape with her sanity in check and makes yet another vow to avoid guys like Eddie and Mike. With a haggard breath, she trudges on. To the next one.

Collin‘s a breath of fresh air. Gorgeous, suave, he’s got charisma oozing from every pore in his sculpted body. His confident smirk and bright eyes leave Petra stunned and off balance. In a good way. His self-confidence and ease is intriguing. With the many women flocking around him, fawning over him, it’s no wonder why Petra finds herself drawn to him too. He’s got it going on, in a big way. He understands women, or so he thinks, and everything about him speaks of his confident ease around women. Around Petra. He’s got all the right words to say, the right look to throw her way to keep her wondering. She’s curious and finds herself wondering if he’s any different. He doesn’t seem overly-emotional nor manipulative… but Petra’s cautious. Every man must have a vice to him after all. Collins scoots in, brushes her arm with his warm fingers and wiggles his brows at her as his eyes caress her face. Her cheeks warm and tingle under his attention and she shyly succumbs to his charm. Bingo! Except not really. Collins scoots back just as easily and with a furrowed brow, he tells her not to fall for him. He doesn’t like her like that. She’s just a friend. Like the other hundred girls giggling and fluttering around him.

Embarrassed and slighted, Petra ducks away with most of her pride still in place. She pulls out her imaginary notebook and crosses off yet another one. This time, she’s tired and no longer looking. If the right one’s out there, he’ll find her. Right?

Shane swoops in. Man of the hour, he’s talented, he’s easygoing and surprise surprise, he’s not bad looking either. There’s no sign of an overly-emotional, manipulative casanova personality type. Even with a sigh of relief, Petra hesitantly inches close. At least she’s sorta grateful and impressed that he’s neither pushy nor aggressive. Patience in a man has to be a good sign? She’s content to listen, taking in everything he’s saying without any refrain. After all, she wants to get a feel for him before she lets her guard down.  Shane doesn’t disappoint. He’s honest and forthright, she has to give him that… except he’s not let her get a word in. Barely a pause is given for her to speak of herself. It’s not a big deal since she doesn’t like to brag about herself, not that he notices and is content to fill the silence with colorful stories of his amazing life…

Quietly, Petra bows out and slumps against the invisible wall before pulling out her notebook. She warily stares at the blotted names and mutely crosses yet another name off the list.

On to the next one?