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Her Champion: Chapter 26

Posted on 08/08/2013

rowhouse

Crystal cast an anxious look at the door before swinging her gaze back to Tamar. “He was taking me home. That’s always chancy but I. . . I was selfish, I wanted him to take me home. Dad was drunk and started messing with Dylan. He said something about mom and then it went downhill from there. He swung and then it fell back into old patterns.”

Tamar fought to keep her expression still even though her entire body shivered at the thought of someone pummelling Dylan with a heavy hand and raging fury. She wanted to run to him and hold him but instead eyed Crystal warily. “What about you? Did he touch you?”

Crystal’s voice broke on her laugh. “Of course not. He knows Dylan would kill him and that’s not an exaggeration. He only says stuff and even then he doesn’t say it in front of Dylan.”

Her brow furrowed as she studied the high school student. There was a maturity in Crystal that even she hadn’t possessed back then… Tamar sighed. “I’m glad you’re okay, Crystal,” she whispered, her blue eyes scanning the girl’s features just in case Crystal was hiding any injuries or secrets from her.

“I just wish Dylan was as okay,” she whispered. “And then as if fighting wasn’t bad enough, he comes home and beats himself up for not being able to move me out of there.”

Tamar’s lips formed a slight o as she stared at Crystal in silent awe. The two of them, Crystal and Dylan, were sharing an unimaginable burden, and something in her wanted to help lighten their load. The wheels in her head started spinning and she straightened her back. “Cry–” her phone sounded against her hip pocket and Tamar frowned at the interruption. Sighing, she tugged the offending phone from her pocket and immediately swallowed a groan. Bekah. “Excuse me a minute, ‘kay?” she whispered to Crystal with a smile and shuffled to one corner of the room. “Hello?” she whispered once she was a few feet from the girl.

Bekah clucked in annoyance. “Where the heck are you?”

“With Dylan and Crystal–look, Bekah, I need a favor.”

“You’re in no place to ask for favors, Tamar. What are you doing out with them? I was scared out of my wits looking for you!”

“I’m sorry…” Tamar grimaced, clutching the phone. “Look, can Dylan and Crystal sleep over?” She held her breath at the stifled silence on the other end.

“Wait a minute,” Bekah finally spoke and Tamar could hear the click of metal locks in the background, followed by the distinctive sound of an engine running. “You want your boyfriend and his sister to shack up with us?”

“Just for one night,” Tamar said quickly, shifting her back to Crystal. “Actually… Let’s discuss that when I get home.”

“Good thought. When are you getting home?”

Tamar bit her bottom lip. “We’re leaving in a bit. They’re just getting their stuff.” She peeked over her shoulder and gave Crystal a smile. “Is that cool?”

“Do I have a choice in the matter?” Bekah dragged out a sigh.

Tamar grinned, turning away from Crystal. “Thanks Bekah. Love you.”

“Yeah yeah…” Bekah disconnected the call and Tamar finally heaved a sigh.

She then turned to Crystal with a wide grin. “Good news!” she announced, the tautness in her shoulders loosening instantly. “You can stay with us.”

Crystal smiled tentatively. “That’s good. I didn’t want Dylan trying to take me home tonight. . . and I really didn’t want to go myself.” She winced when Dylan walked out of his room at that exact moment. For the briefest of instants guilt flashed plain across his face before he wiped all emotion from his face.

“You sure you two don’t just want to make it a girls’ night?” he offered quietly.

Tamar smiled gently and nodded, her eyes probing his to trust her. “It’ll be fun, the four of us. Don’t feel awkward about it, Sinatra. Besides, I insist.” She then tilted her chin, daring him to challenge her further.

His face suggested fun wasn’t the word he had in mind but he didn’t argue anymore after that. “Ready when you are then.”

Tamar gave him a grateful smile for yielding and walked over to Crystal. “There’s another bedroom besides mine and Bekah, so you don’t have to feel uncomfortable.” She placed a hand on the girl’s shoulder, wanting to calm her fears or worries. “Let’s go then,” she said, looking over Crystal’s shoulder at Dylan. His bruises made her stomach twist painfully and she couldn’t wait to get home to focus her attention on him.

Dylan didn’t have many words on the way to Tamar’s. Crystal didn’t push but frequently reached out to touch him, even if only for a few seconds as if to reassure herself he was okay and with her. He obliged her and sometimes returned the touches but otherwise focused on the drive. Crystal sighed as they pulled into the complex and shared a look with Tamar.

Without a word, Tamar nodded at Crystal and slowly stepped out of the car.

Bekah immediately pulled open the door, having sat by the window for Tamar’s return. She bounded down the steps and made her way over to the car. Her footsteps faltered and she swallowed a breath at the sight of Dylan’s bruised face. “Geez. . . what happen—” she halted when Tamar cut her a warning look. Dragging her gaze to the quiet girl beside them, Bekah managed a smile. “You must be Crystal?”

“And you must be Bekah.” Crystal forced a smile. “Tonio and Dylan have had a lot to say about you. It’s nice to finally meet the legend.”

Bekah glanced once at Dylan and frowned slightly before returning her eyes to Crystal. “Why don’t you guys come inside?” She gestured to the steps and moved out of the way to let Crystal and Dylan enter first. As Tamar stepped around her to climb the steps, she grabbed her cousin’s hand to pull her back. “What happened?”

“Later, Bekah,” Tamar whispered, pulling her arm from Bekah’s grasp. Releasing a shaky breath, she jogged up the steps and turned to Crystal. “Welcome to our humble abode. It’s not much but I hope you’ll be comfortable here. Bekah,” she peered over at her cousin who wore a quizzical frown. “Could you show Crystal the room?” She didn’t wait for Bekah’s reply and immediately moved to Dylan’s side, hooking an arm under his and steering him toward the bathroom.

Bekah frowned deeper at her cousin’s retreating figure. “Sure. . .” Then she turned to Crystal. “Want something to drink before you settle in for the night?”

“Umm, water would be good if it’s not too much trouble. I’m sorry we’re crashing your place like this.”

Bekah waved her off. “Don’t even mention it.” She strolled to the fridge and pulled it open. Her eyes scanned the first two shelves and wrinkled her nose. She would have to stop by the grocery store to stock up soon. Shrugging, she grabbed two cold bottles of water and nudged the door before crossing the room back to Crystal. Her eyes quickly studied the girl before her and satisfied that there were no bruises on her face, she extended one bottle to her. “So tell me, what has Tonio been saying about me?” she asked, hoping it would distract the girl from whatever caused that wrinkle on her brow.

Crystal took a long swallow of water before looking over at Bekah. “I think the better question is what he hasn’t been saying. It would definitely take a lot less time to cover.”

The corner of Bekah’s lips quirked up as she regarded the girl openly. Then averting her head, she covered the amused smile by taking a swig of her water before looking back at Crystal. Gesturing down the hallway with the bottle, she raised a brow at her. “Wanna check out your room?”

Tamar ambled across the room, standing by her armoire and gestured silently to her bed, watching Dylan as he stood quietly at the door.

Dylan ran a hand down his face and immediately regretted it. Sighing, he leaned against the wall and dropped his head back. He knew he was being a jerk but he was still trying to process things, make arrangements, figure out what to do with Crystal. Besides, what was there to say about what had happened?

Biting her lip as he made no move to come over, Tamar trudged back to him. She reached for both his hands. “Dylan…” she whispered gently, her heart twisting in pain for him. What could she do? “Let me in, please. Let me help.”

“This isn’t something you can help, pretty girl,” he finally said. His voice was as rough as sandpaper and he didn’t bother trying to clear his throat. “We’ll work it out. We always do.”

Tamar blinked, frowning as she felt her eyes sting at his rough words. She knew he had a right to be upset but his words stung. She lowered her gaze to her fingers wrapped around his own. Her thumbs moved over the back of his hands. “I just want you to sit down for a minute…” she said gently. “To clear your head so you can think calmly.” She peeked up at him. “Is that so much to ask?”

The motion of her thumbs along his hands was simple but something about it unlocked something in him. With a heavy sigh he started across the room to the bed, drawing her with him. He sank down onto it and pulled her down onto his lap. “Better?”

She fought a smile and nodded solemnly at him. Lifting one hand to cup his chin, her fingers stroked the skin that wasn’t bruised or broken. Her brow furrowed with every stroke and her eyes flickered over his. “Not yet. . . But I will be when I can take care of you.” She leaned forward and placed a soft, fleeting kiss against his forehead. “Let me take care of you, Dylan.”

He turned his head to press a kiss to the palm of her hand. “You already took care of me,” he reminded her quietly. “Medicine really is a good fit for you.”

She rolled her eyes. “You know what I mean, Dylan.” Her fingers moved down the solid column of his neck and slid over his shoulders. “What can I do for you to rest your mind? For you and Crystal?” Her thoughts wandered, caught hold of what Crystal had told her earlier and she quickly shifted her gaze back to his. “What will you do about Crystal? Can she stay with you at your place. . . or?” she asked, her voice barely over a whisper.

He closed his eyes and focused on her touch. She was posing the very question he’d been asking himself repeatedly. It was several moments before he found the words to say. “I’m working on it.”

Tamar tamped down the excitement that bubbled inside her at the hint of desperation in Dylan’s voice. She knew this was a way she could help and told herself to remain calm. “What about. . . here? Could she stay here?” She bit the inside of her cheek, her eyes riveted on him as if anticipating his flat-out refusal.

“What?” he croaked. His brain couldn’t come up with more than that. Had he heard her right? She was offering to let Crystal live with her?

She gave him a crooked grin. “We have one more room. I can fix it up nicely for Crystal to have as hers. You know, for as long as she wants it.” She nudged his shoulder gently. “Is that okay?”

He just stared at her. Could it really be that simple? After years of trying to come up with a solution, she’d just dropped it on his lap as if it were no big deal. “That’s. . . a lot. If Nick found out she was here-” he broke off, shaking his head at the thought.

A cold tremor skittered up her spine but she straightened on his lap. Her fingers gripped his shoulders, forcing him to look at her. “How would he find out if we didn’t tell him?” She frowned at him. “Dylan, what other option do you have?” She chewed at her bottom lip, not wanting to think about anything else. “Let her stay here with us. At least until you come up with something better. Please?” she squeezed his shoulders.

He had no other options. That had been the story for far too long. “Just. . . for now. Okay? A few days. Until I can get something sorted out.”

Tamar’s face split into a wide grin and she threw her arms around his neck, snuggling against him. “Thank you,” she breathed, securing her arms around him. The tightness around her heart eased, grateful that he was finally trusting her with Crystal. Even if it was only for a few days.

She was thanking him when she’d at the very least given him a temporary solution to a problem that had kept him awake at night on more than one occasion. “I should be thanking you.” His voice was no more than a whisper as he drew her in tightly. She never stopped amazing him and not for the first time he wondered how he had gotten so lucky.

Tamar could only smile, pressing a gentle kiss against his ear, burrowing closer in the warmth of his arms. She marveled how easy it was to rest in his arms and not feel overwhelmed or threatened. Her heart fluttered and she closed her eyes, her fingers slowly rubbed the space between his shoulders.

“I’m sorry about tonight,” he said in her ear after a few minutes of silence. “I don’t think this is what you had planned.”

She shrugged, nestling her cheek against him. The scent of him relaxed her body and she smiled. “It’s alright. . . I’m just glad you’re okay.” Her smile waned. “When you didn’t call, you worried me something fierce, Dylan.”

His muscles tightened the slightest bit and he lifted his head, his eyes serious. “You’re not allowed to worry, pretty girl. Not about me.”

Tamar rolled her eyes. “Why not? I’m more than allowed to worry about you. I…” She frowned slightly at the words that formed at the tip of her tongue. Averting her gaze to his taut muscles, she drew invisible lines along his skin. “I care about you. Of course I should worry.” She peeked up at him. “It’s my right to.”

“I understand the concept but I like it better when you don’t worry. So if you could just forfeit that right. . .” he suggested, nuzzling the soft spot just behind her ear.

Her back stiffened slightly as his warm breath tickled her skin. Tamar bit her bottom lip and forced out a laugh, searing him with a warning look. “I know what you’re doing and it won’t work. Not one bit.”

“Are you sure? ‘Cause I think it is.” His chuckle was silenced by the kiss he pressed to that same spot.

She muffled a moan and pinched the skin of his bicep. “Nope. It’s not.”

“Sure? Really sure?” he asked in between kisses. He reached up and captured her offending hand, holding it against her thigh.

Tamar smirked and inclined her head, nuzzling her pursed lips to his. Enough talking. She’d waited all day for this, for him. Snaking her arms around his neck, she deepened the kiss and closed her eyes, reveling in the feel of him against her.

Dylan knew he couldn’t stop her from worrying even if he didn’t want her wasting time being concerned about him. He could, however, take her mind off of it so he set about doing just that. He coaxed her with soft teasing kisses and gentle strokes over her arms and along her back.

“You do that too well,” Tamar’s fingers trailed at the ends of his hair. “And you need a haircut.” She nipped at his bottom lip, scooting closer to him.

“I learned from you.” He sank his weight more fully onto the bed, bracing on his elbows as he looked up at her. “You don’t get to tell me I don’t look as good as usual and then sneak more kisses, woman.”

She raised a taunting brow. “And what are you going to do about that if I do, Mr. Ramsey?” She ruffled his hair.

“Stop kissing you, Ms. Malek.”

Tamar chuckled softly and nodded. “Works for me.” She took her precious time, sliding off his lap and stood to her feet. “I’ll go check on your sister,” she said, looking down at him. “You rest up.”

“Can you handle me rested up?” he challenged with a laugh.

She turned up her nose at him. “You can’t handle me without resting up.” Swiveling on her heels to hide a smirk, she started for the door.

He fell back onto the bed completely then, outright laughing even though he couldn’t believe it. He hadn’t imagined he’d be smiling let alone laughing after the day he’d had and yet he’d already done both. Because of Tamar.

Shaking her head at the sound of his laugh, Tamar strode to the room beside hers and smiled at the sight of Bekah unfolding a clean purple bed sheet over the single bed. She turned to Crystal standing near the bed and smiled warmly. “Everything okay?”

Bekah flapped the sheet over the bare mattress without looking over her shoulder at her cousin. “How’s he doing? Resting?”

“Uh-hmm.” Tamar kept her eyes on Crystal. “I bet you’re ready to turn in too, huh?”

Crystal nodded absently. “I could hear him laughing. Really laughing.” Her eyes were wide and she blinked violently. “You’re good for him. Thank you for being there for him, us actually.”

Bekah peeked from the corner of her eye at Tamar who smiled shyly and smirked, tucking the ends of the sheet under the mattress.

“I’m grateful that you told me,” Tamar said softly, her blue eyes searching Crystal’s. She wished either she or Dylan would go tell her everything but knew it was more than just trust. She knew how difficult it was to speak of deep wounds and unhealed scars. Giving the young woman an encouraging smile, Tamar sighed gently. “I want you to feel comfortable here, Crystal. . . If you’re ever in the neighborhood and you need a place to crash, feel free to stay here.” She wasn’t sure if she should’ve waited for Dylan to give Crystal the news but her whole body was itching to divulge it all. One stern look from Bekah stilled her tongue and she bit it back behind another smile. “I’m getting ice-cream and pie for Dylan and I. Would you two like a bowl?”

“Not me,” Bekah mumbled. “Indigestion at midnight is a beast.” She smoothened the sheet over the mattress and straightened her frame before turning to face Crystal. “I’ll be in my room if you need anything. Good night,” she said with a half-weary smile and trudged between the two out of the room.

“Goodnight Bekah.”  Just after she left the room, the full weight of Tamar’s words hit her. Crystal dropped down on the bed as if her legs could no longer hold her weight. “That’s…that’s really generous of you. I–wow. I don’t even really know what to say.” She’d expected something like that from a friend but not from Tamar, especially given the way she’d acted toward her when they’d first met. “Did I ever apologize for being a brat?”

Tamar waved her words aside and moved over to the edge of the bed, perching there. “Don’t even mention it.” She smiled in Crystal’s direction. “And don’t you dare apologize for caring fiercely for your big brother. I’d be worried if you didn’t.”

Crystal smiled sheepishly. “Fierce is definitely one way to describe it. Still, I was kinda rude with it and I do apologize for that.”

She lifted one shoulder. “Don’t mention it. . .” With one quick survey of the room, Tamar pushed up to her feet. “In for some ice-cream and pie or do you just want to get some sleep?”

“Maybe just some ice-cream. Do you mind if I drop in on Dylan for a minute?”

Tamar scoffed incredulously. “Gosh, why would I mind? He’s your brother.” She shook her head and flashed the girl a smile before she strode to the door. “Seriously, Crystal. Relax and feel free with whatever in this house. I’ll go get you your ice-cream.”

“Thanks!” she called after her even as she left the room in search of Dylan. She found him stretched out on Tamar’s bed, hands clasped behind his head and eyes closed. She hesitated just outside the door. He was resting and she didn’t want to bother him with her stupid need for reassurance.

“You going to stand there all night, peanut?” Dylan drawled without opening his eyes.

<<Chapter 25 || Chapter 27>>

Her Champion: Chapter 8

Posted on 08/06/2013

campusdorm

He jerked back, bending down to rub at the spot where her foot connected. “What did I do now?” he demanded, glaring up at her. “You’re too violent. Did you skip anger management this week?”

Tamar placed her hands on her hips, glaring back at him. ”Kiss me again without my permission and I’ll box your ears.”

“You’re just now reacting to that?” He straightened, his eyes never leaving her. He figured that wasn’t a good moment to point out she’d seemed to like it. “Fine, I promise I won’t kiss you without your permission. Satisfied? You could’ve ruined me for this week’s game,” he grumbled.

”Not nearly enough,” she replied tersely. ”What were you thinking feeding my father lines? I’m not in the mood to explain you to my father. Delete the number I gave you right now.”

“You’re the only one who still thinks I’m playing games, Tamar. And maybe you should’ve thought of that before you gave me his number. You set this up.”

”And I’m fixing it,” she snapped back at him. “Delete the number.”

“No. I think your father deserves to be kept in the loop. Besides, we’ve already gotten a chance to talk to each other a little.”

Tamar threw her hands up and dropped it to her sides, glaring up at him. ”What’s it gonna take for you to get it? I’m not interested in being your friend or anything else.”

“Really? That kiss the other night said otherwise. Don’t lie to me, Tamar. Admit you don’t have the guts to see this through, but don’t lie.”

Her cheeks flamed on command and Tamar bit down. ”You didn’t give me a chance to react, you big ape,” she said through clenched teeth. ”Don’t challenge me. I’m not scared of you or anything you think you can offer.”

“If I had we wouldn’t have stopped at one kiss,” he told her simply. “Funny, your mouth’s saying one thing but your actions are saying another. I don’t have to challenge you. I’m just calling it like I see it. I know what I can offer. There’s nothing to think about. You’re scared. I can’t figure out what of, but you’re scared. I get it.”

Tamar poked a finger at the space in front of his chest. ”You don’t go off making assumptions about people you don’t know. And guess what, you don’t know me. I am not scared of anything you have to offer, I just don’t want it. Now that I’ve made myself clear, you can leave.”

He looked her straight in the eyes and laughed. “You wanna talk about making assumptions? That’s all you’ve done since the second you met me and it got worse when you found out I played football. Don’t talk to me about making assumptions, Tamar. Tell me. At what point since we met have you even made an effort to get to know me before deciding I was some ladies’ man playing a game with you? You keep talking about not wanting what I have to offer and you haven’t even heard the offer yet.”

She couldn’t believe what she was hearing, her ears smarted by his pointed words. ”Excuse me, were you not the one spitting lines the second you met me? Don’t tell me you expect me to believe you were all about knowing me then?” Tamar shrugged. ”I don’t need another date or whatever to tell you what’s going to happen next. So take your offer and your bruised chin, and move on to the next one. We’re done here.” She turned on her heel to walk away but stopped herself. She turned around to face him. ”Just because we kissed and it was a good one, doesn’t mean anything else good can happen between us.” Shaking her head, Tamar turned away toward the jogging path.

“Doesn’t mean anything else good can’t either,” he returned quietly as she turned her back to him. He wouldn’t chase her, wouldn’t beg her to look past the football star and see the man. He’d never begged for a thing in his life. He wouldn’t start now. It was up to her to take it or leave it. He’d gone out of his way to prove this wasn’t a game, more so than he had with any other woman. If she still believed that, it was by choice.

—-

”You still think he’s playing with you?” Bekah said over the phone after Tamar recanted the heated encounter. ”He seemed serious to me. He even called Uncle–”

”That’s precisely why I had to put a stop to it,” Tamar answered quickly, her brow furrowed. ”He had no business getting my dad involved.”

”You gave him the number.”

”He was supposed to chicken out, not goad me by perking my dad’s curiosity and concern. I already have enough troubles.” She folded her arms across her chest, staring out the window.

”Him not chickening out shows he’s serious. Tamar, it’s time to stop running,” Bekah said softly. ”Deep down, you know you’re curious about him.”

She wrinkled her nose. ”I’ll get over it. A guy like him has no business doing anything with a girl like me.”

”He sure didn’t think so after that k–”

”End of discussion. I’m off to class.” Tamar disconnected the call and pressed a hand to her flaming cheek. She needed to stop thinking about him and that blasted kiss. It would do her no good thinking about things that couldn’t be.

Pushing off the bed, she pushed her feet into her Doc Martins and reached for her bag before heading out to her last class of the day.

Again with the staring, Tamar begrudgingly noted as she stepped out of the stairwell and an onslaught of eyes were on her. Mentally she checked her reflection; white and yellow paisley dress cinched at the waist and skimming her knees with a brown leather belt, an oversized gray cardigan over her dress and her brown Doc Martins. Normal Muffet Malek attire, so what was with the heavy staring this time?

Shaking she head, she forged onward through the door and started walking down the street. Her footsteps slowed, noticing that even the passersby had gotten the memo to stare at Muffet Malek, for whatever reason.

Finally making it to the other side of the street, Tamar suddenly spotted Bekah racing toward her. ”Where’s the fire?” She drawled as her cousin staggered to a stop in front of her.

”You…” Bekah gasped for air. ”You have to come with me, now.” She grabbed Tamar’s arm and pulled her back toward the dorm building.

Tamar dug on her heels but Bekah was not to be deterred. ”What on earth is going on?”

Five minutes later, Tamar stared warily at the front page of Covington’s Review, the school’s paper. ”Muffet Malek, school outcast has a past of mental problems…” She paused to take a deep breath. ”It must be a slow news week.”

Bekah rubbed the back of her neck, staring down at the before and after picture of Tamar. ”I swear, I don’t understand why they just can’t leave you alone.” She looked up at her cousin, frowning at Tamar’s blank face. ”You okay?”

”So much for laying low,” Tamar said with a wry smile. ”Well at least it’s all in the open now.” She stepped away from the desk and reached for her bag. ”I’ll see you later, alright?”

Bekah watched her cousin leave the room and sighed heavily before dragging her eyes back to the school newspaper.

Neecy and her posse were ready for the kill at the entrance of the building. Tamar rolled her eyes but kept walking toward them.

”Who would’ve thought it?” Neecy crooned as Tamar walked forward. ”Who would’ve known you were mentally unstable? We’re so sorry for making fun of you…”

The insincerity could cut someone’s skin. Good thing Tamar’s skin was thick enough. She turned to face Neecy and her girls, her jaw set tight at the mocking laughter in their eyes. A cold shiver ran down her spine but she steeled it. ”You must be extremely bored and have nothing to do with your time… Or you want to bring others down to your level.”

Neecy narrowed her green eyes. ”You shouldn’t talk about being low, Mental Malek, when you’re trying to bring others down with you.”

”What is this about?” Tamar could already picture his face and clenched her jaw.

”Stay away from Dylan, you’ll ruin his reputation with your mental past. Stop taking advantage of his niceness,” Neecy cut deep. ”Just because he’s a good person doesn’t mean he has to help every scuffed-up stray that comes his way.”

Stray… Tamar smirked up at Neecy. ”I hear you. We done here?”

Neecy scoffed in disgust, eying Tamar with disdain. ”Bye,” she said, placing her hands on her hips.

Shaking her head, Tamar turned and walked out the building to her class, shoving everything far far away from her mind.

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