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Tunde & Anaya: Part 6

Posted on 26/03/2013

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Tunde adjusted the slim gray tie under his collar and lifted his eyes to the solemn reflection in the mirror. Just then, the door swung open and his gaze shifted to his brother’s equally grave expression. He sighed, hands smoothing the gray tie. Silas approached him, hands shoved in black slacks.

“Silly, silly, silly…” Silas muttered as he leaned against the window’s ledge by the mirror. His eyes lifted to Tunde’s face, eying the man from head to toe. “Sure you can do this?”

Tunde shrugged his shoulders. “What else can I do? His mother requested I give the eulogy…”

Silas snorted under his breath and turned his head to peer out onto the street, watching as people filed into the two-story church building. “Senseless fighting, amounting to what?”

Tunde’s eyes watched Silas’ mouth, his brother’s words echoing the pain in his heart. Femi Oyeniran. A young and promising high school senior who was on his way to Texas A&M University at the end of the year. He remembered the lanky young man with his mischievous eyes and easy laugh. A good boy, caught in the crossfire of a senseless feud. Picturing the boy’s lifeless body in the casket on the first floor, Tunde dragged his eyes from Silas’ profile and focused his gaze back on his tie.

Silas shook his head and turned back to Tunde who was frowning at his lopsided tie. Pushing off the ledge, he walked over and gently pushed Tunde’s hands to straighten the tie himself. “Nervous?”

Tunde heaved a sigh. “Annoyed. Confused.” Why was Femi downtown so late at night? Why couldn’t their fellow Nigerians bury the hatchet and stop fighting each other? His heart twisted, recalling the shy gaze of the lovely Anaya and his brow furrowed deeper. Disappointed.

“Your dream girl,” Silas said, pausing when Tunde stiffened visibly. His eyes lifted to Tunde’s. “She’s a Fulani right?”

Tunde didn’t reply, merely staring at his younger brother with a grave expression.

Silas grunted and lowered his eyes back to Tunde’s stubborn silk tie. “It’s unfortunate that her people can’t get along with ours… but you still want her, don’t you?”

He felt his heart skip a beat as the truth pushed through the despair. “Yeah, I do.” Seeing her that night, with her gentle eyes searching his as he shared with her about his ear condition, he had a feeling that she was beginning to give him a chance. But what if she felt differently now?

“Do you think she’ll let something like her people’s discord with ours to not give you guys a chance?”

Tunde swallowed hard, looking over Silas’ head at the darkening sky in the window. The storm was coming, the gray blanket of clouds settling over the town. “I hope not… I pray not.”

Anaya bit her bottom lip as she sat at the second stair with Leeza who pressed her ear against the wall, listening to their mother’s agonizing cries as their father relayed the news. This time the fight was personal. Hadiza’s second older cousin’s first son had been killed in the crossfire. Ibrahim Sanusi was a young and impressionable, fiery tempered man. Anaya remembered the few times he’d come with his father to visit them, recalled that cold dark stare whenever Leeza and Anaya dared to stare back at him. She’d never liked him and now felt terrible that she’d ever harbored ill feelings toward the young man being laid to rest tomorrow evening.

From what she’d caught wind of from her father’s muffled voice, the other side had lost a young man of their own. Her heart twisted in pain and she clenched the hem of her tunic. When would the fighting stop? It’d been much quieter, more peaceful when they came to this country almost eight years ago. Sure there were cold and pointed stares between the different groups but no one dared to strike the other. When did it all start?

Leeza tapped her knee and Anaya dragged her gaze to her sister’s questioning one. The younger girl cocked her head to gesture that they go back upstairs and Anaya realized that her mother’s sobbing had ceased. Their father had succeeded to calm her down… for now. It wouldn’t be long after he left that Mother would take to praying aloud. To Allah for the sake of her people.

Tamping down a sigh, Anaya slowly rose and followed Leeza back to her room. She closed the door quietly and walked over to the bed where Leeza had taken her place, legs crossed, eyes focused on Anaya.

“You are worried?” Leeza asked quietly and Anaya dared not look into her sister’s sage gaze.

“Sad. Confused.” Disappointed. An image of the dark-skinned, kind-eyed Tunde crossed her mind and she reluctantly squelched it down, guilt filling her heart.

Leeza tilted her head curiously. “Why? Because Tunde’s a Yoruba man?”

Anaya jerked her wide-eyed gaze to her sister. “Could you be quiet?” She hissed through clenched teeth, peering over her shoulder at the door.

Leeza rolled her eyes, leaning back on her elbows. “So what if he’s Yoruba? Don’t tell me you believe that nonsense Mama said?” She frowned at Anaya’s silence. “You do?”

Anaya bit her bottom lip. “I know he’s not like them. That he’s kind and…” She shook her head. “I can’t. You know Mama will fall ill if I even mention a Yoruba man asking to date me.”

“Sister, don’t you think you’re giving Mama enough reins on your life?” Leeza leaned forward and grabbed her older sister’s hand, forcing the girl to look at her. “You can’t do that, Anaya. You shouldn’t.”

At Leeza’s sincere urging, Anaya could feel the tears gather at her eyes. She blinked them back and shook her head, insistent. “She’s already having a hard time with Ibrahim’s… I can’t add to her grief.”

Leeza dropped Anaya’s hand and drew back, glaring at her sister. “You will sacrifice your chance to be happy because of Mother’s stupid fear of them?”

The door swung open and Anaya stiffened as Leeza inhaled sharply. Anaya didn’t turn around but knew who stood on the other side of the door. “Papa…” Leeza said softly.

“Go start to prepare dinner,” their father’s stern but soft voice sounded from the door. It didn’t take a second for Leeza to fly off the bed and shuffle out the door, her head bent penitently. She knew this was not the end. It was clear that their father had heard everything.

Anaya bit the insides of her cheeks to keep from shivering visibly, her back still turned to the door. Her father’s footsteps sounded as he entered the room and closed the door behind him. She closed her eyes and lowered her head. “Papa…” she croaked out. “I’m sorry.”

The mattress dipped as her father perched on the edge. “Lift your head, Ana…” he said softly.

Anaya swallowed hard, gripping the hem of her tunic as she forced herself to lift her head, eyes still closed.

A soft gentle chuckle permeated through the gripping fear and she squinted one eye open. Her father’s kind eyes stared back at her and Anaya released a tight sigh as she opened both eyes. A slight smile lifted one end of his mouth as he regarded her openly. “A Yoruba man, huh?”

The incredulity in his voice stiffened her body again and Anaya lowered her face again. “Papa, I’m sorry.”

“Sorry for what, Ana? That a wise man sees the treasure I have held dear since you were given to me?”

Her heart slammed hard against her chest. Anaya blinked rapidly as the tears gathered again. She shook her head. “I should’ve told you first.”

“Really… Between the shooting and your mother’s mourning, how would you have gotten my attention?” His hand moved to cover her own and Anaya stared down at the dark long-fingered hand of her father’s. She bit her bottom lip to keep from sobbing. Gratitude surged through her for her father’s faith in God. His gentleness and love for his daughters and wife was something she’d never seen in any of the men in their community.

“You must know this already, my Ana,” her father continued speaking when she couldn’t utter another word. His fingers curled around her palm. “The God you and I serve, he has a funny way of making life… How do you say it, he has a strange sense of humor.”

Anaya dared to look up and saw a full grin on her father’s face. She blinked at him, still unable to speak.

“This Yoruba man, do you like him?” Her father’s dark brown eyes searched hers.

Her heart skipped a beat as Tunde’s image appeared before her mind’s eye and she took a moment, basking in the warm way he looked at her, the gentle way he had tended to her ankle and the direct way he told her of his interest in her. Warmth surged through her body and the corners of her mouth lifted, encouraged by the gentleness in her father’s smile. “Yes, Papa… I do.”

Her father nodded and squeezed her hand gently. “Then don’t worry. Your mother, I will take care of her. Your sister is right, for a change.” He gave her a wry smile. “A child should not have to sacrifice for their parents… It’s the other way around, you should know this.”

Anaya dipped her head, overwhelmed by her father’s words. He was a man of few words but she’d always been closer with him than her mother because of the way he showed his love and reverence for God, a God she believed in wholeheartedly. Her mother, Hadiza, his wife, was still battling to release her ties with Allah and for that reason; Anaya couldn’t connect as well with her. “Papa…” she choked in between a sob.

He shifted on the mattress and placed a hand on her bowed head. “Don’t worry. The God you and I serve, He will take care of everything. Remove the fear from your heart and trust Him.”

Tears of relief fell unrestrained now as Anaya leaned her head on her father’s strong but narrow shoulders, feeling the tight hold on her heart release with the valued, soothing word from her reticent father.

<<Part 5 || Part 7>>

Tunde & Anaya: Part 5

Posted on 22/03/2013

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“Hey Halliday,” a man called, jogging to catch up with Tunde’s long-legged stride across the hall. He tapped the man’s shoulder and smirked when Tunde peered over his shoulder at him. “I keep forgetting, sorry.”

Tunde gave his colleague, Samuel Chen, a patient smile and slowed his steps. “What’s up?”

The man gestured over his shoulder at the room where their other coworkers leisurely strolled out into the lobby. “You don’t think she’ll budge, do you?”

Tunde smirked. “You think too much, Chen.” He tucked the 3-inch binder under his arm as they turned a corner into the main floor of the library. His eyes quickly scanned the lobby as if looking for someone. It was almost midnight but there were students loitering. He shook his head. Someone like her would be sensible enough to stay at home instead of hanging out. His loss since he wanted to see her.

Samuel tapped his shoulder to get his attention, his brows drawn in a concerned line. “But we need this grant. What if she doesn’t agree to it?”

“It’s a good program. You heard everyone in there.” He reached out to pat the man’s shoulder. “You worry too much, Chen…” Tunde trailed off, spotting her right away. He tucked in a smile and turned back to his concerned colleague. “I’ll see you at the office later this week. Go relax,” he instructed and without waiting for the man’s reply, he walked around him after the girl now hobbling toward a row of bookshelves.

“That’s because I worry for the both of us!” Samuel called after him, rewarded with a dark glare and a sharp shush from the librarian sitting behind her desk just a few feet away. Frowning after Tunde who was now striding across the hallway, Samuel shook his head and turned away to converse with the others who had joined him on the main floor.

 —

All throughout the second night session, Anaya found that her mind refused to concentrate on anything but the man now occupying her thoughts. Tunde Halliday. Even after the session was dismissed and she’d decided to wait for Giselle who was chatting with several boys on campus, she crossed the street to the library for one book for her late night study session. She caught herself glancing around the main floor of the library in search for the tall, dark man who drove her home earlier.

Wrinkling her nose for being silly, she forced her mind to scan the list of current antidepressants instead. Her eyes lifted up from the book, lips moving silently to memorize another set of pharmacology terms when her lips stilled, the word trailing off as she spotted him. Cocky smile in place, his slim dark tie pulled at the collar and his slim-fit navy blue jacket unbuttoned, flying as he strode toward her.

She swallowed hard, gaping for a moment as she took in his slim physique and strong long legs swinging with purpose. Realizing she was staring, Anaya spun on her heels and started to walk ahead.

“Hey wait!” he called, laughter in his voice as he reached her side.

Anaya bit her bottom lip, grimacing as he chuckled at her silliness no doubt.

“If I didn’t know better, I’d think you were avoiding me…” he tilted his head even as he circled to stand in front of her. His eyes scanned her face, one corner of his lips tugged up in amusement. “How are you?” He looked down at her leg. “How’s your ankle?”

“Fine,” she forced out, annoyed that her shoulders eased their tension at the sight of him. To her horror, she realized she’d been worried that he was the one avoiding her. “Now excuse me…” she mumbled, stepping around him to continue her retreat to the back of the library.

He chuckled, easing in step beside her. “What book are you reading?” he peeked down at it. “BCPJ… Antidepressant—” Tunde straightened, not losing a step even as hers quickened toward the row of bookshelves. He merely smiled as Anaya tucked the book, covering the words as she rounded the shelf and walked over to a desk near the back wall. Hiding a chuckle with a slight cough, Tunde took the seat opposite her and propped his elbows on the table.

Anaya’s face warmed at his open perusal but she refused to look at him. Couldn’t or she would completely lose her focus.

“So when are we going on our date?”

Her eyes flicked up to his face, her brow furrowed deeply at the amused look in his black eyes. She forced her gaze to the closed book and quickly pulled it open, refusing to speak.

“Are you busy studying or are you ignoring me, Ana?”

Anaya looked up and narrowed her eyes at him. “What do you think?” She bit the inside of her cheek when his mouth split into a wide, amused grin. She dragged her eyes back to the book.

“Okay, I won’t bother you… Anyway, this is probably the last day you’ll see me here. I return to the office next week. And it seemed only reasonable to set our date plans before I leave.”

“I don’t date,” Anaya murmured, flipping a page of the book.

“Ana, could you look up? I can’t read what you’re saying when your head is down like that.”

Anaya frowned and glanced up curiously at him. “What do you mean?”

He gave her that slow patient smile. “I have to read your lips to hear what you’re saying.”

“I don’t…understand.” Her eyes searched his for the truth.

Tunde nodded and lifted a finger to tap on his left ear. “Deaf.”

Something heavy dropped in the pit of her stomach and she gaped at him, jaw slack.

His smile remained and his black eyes softened. “You don’t believe me?”

Anaya shook her head. “I-it’s not that.” She frowned, recalling the times he’d stared down at her lips, or turned around to stare at her whenever she spoke. She shook her head again. “How…?”

“An accident when I was fourteen.” Tunde shrugged. “I can hear muffled voices, so not completely deaf. But I do have to read your lips…”

“I’m sorry,” she answered dumbly.

“I’m not.” His own lips tugged a gentle smile. “You have a very beautiful mouth. You speak very eloquently,” he added slowly.

Anaya’s cheeks warmed under his open gaze and she glanced down. Then just as quickly, remembering his condition, she snapped her eyes back to him.

When she didn’t say anything else, Tunde leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. “I didn’t tell you that to feel sorry for me… except if it gets you to accept a date with me.” Again with the slow smile.

Anaya laughed softly and looked down, shaking her head.

“Is that a yes or still a no?” Tunde asked, tilting his head to peer down at her lips.

His gentle voice drew her eyes back to his face. A smile of her own tugged her lips and she searched his black eyes. “Maybe…”

He leaned back, satisfied grin in place. “Maybe, I can handle.”

Anaya lowered her eyes shyly, feeling the heaviness lift from her stomach.

“By the way, why are you out here so late?” His brow furrowed with open concern.

“I’m waiting for a classmate to drive me home. Another study session.”

“Study sessions at night, huh…” Tunde tilted his head to study her curiously. “What, that girl you were with last time? Giselle or something?”

“Yup, that’s her name…” Anaya smiled. “You have a good memory.”

He smirked back. “You know what they say about once you lose one sense, the others get more acute.”

Anaya rolled her eyes. “I don’t think that applies to memory.”

Tunde flashed his signature smile. “I’m pulling your leg.”

“Consider it pulled.” Anaya couldn’t believe how comfortable it seemed talking with this man. Although she’d seen him times before, he was still very much a stranger.

He chuckled, scanning her face leisurely. “I can take you home, if you want. Won’t your parents be worried that you’re out so late?”

No doubt her father would be sitting in the dimly-lit living room, waiting for her to return. Thankfully her mother was working tonight and wouldn’t add to the worry. Anaya shrugged. “They will but I already told them Giselle would drop me off. But thanks.”

“Want me to wait around until she gets here?” He asked further and Anaya noted that he wasn’t making any move to stand yet, his lithe body sprawled on the chair before her.

“It’s alright.”

“You don’t want me to distract you, huh?” his grin was lopsided, almost penitent.

Anaya shook her head, ignoring the minor skip of her heartbeat. “It’s not that…” Truthfully, she was still trying to get her mind around him being half-deaf and yet so normal. All the people she knew that were deaf didn’t seem this confident with themselves or around other people. He was both.

Tunde leaned forward and Anaya involuntarily leaned back. His eyes searched her face, gentle smile in place. “Don’t feel sorry for me, Ana. I’m just as much a man as any other. A man who wants very much to go out with you. Get to know you. You’ll let me know when I can take you out, right?”

Anaya’s cheeks warmed, shy from his candid words but she kept her head up. “I’ll think about it.” Her heart skipped a beat when his dark eyes shifted to her lips before lifting back to her eyes.

Tunde dipped his head in acknowledgment before leaning back. “Take your time, baby girl.” He winked then and rose to his feet. “Hope your friend doesn’t take too long.” He shoved one hand in his pocket and smiled gently down at her. “And don’t stay out too late. Hope to see you around.” With that, he spun on his heels and strode away from the table, leaving Anaya to stare after him.

“Baby girl!?!” Leeza sat up on the bed, gaping at Anaya as her older sister limped to the other side of the room. She slapped her thighs, grinning from ear to ear. “You skipped the first name base and already have nicknames for each other? What’s his nickname?”

Milo, a tall drink of chocolate goodness. Anaya frowned at her sister from across the room, pulling off her sweater. “There are no nicknames. Stop being silly.”

Leeza chuckled, tilting her head curiously. “You’re lying. You do have a nickname for him. What is it?”

Anaya rolled her eyes as she plopped on the desk chair by the window and folded her arms. “He has no nickname. The guy’s name is Tunde and that’s the end of that.” She could feel the warmth rising on her face and clenched her jaw against it, annoyed that she’d even thought of it. Her eyes returned to Leeza. “Where’s Dad? I didn’t notice him when I came in.”

Leeza wrinkled her nose at the change of subject and lay back on Anaya’s bed. She curled up against the pillow, still keeping her eyes on Anaya. “Someone in the community was shot. A scuffle between two college students downtown… So Dad had to go.”

Her eyes widened and she sat up. “Who? What happened?”

Leeza frowned, shrugging her shoulders. “I didn’t hear the details but I think it was between a stupid Yoruba guy and one of ours that got into it…” She sucked in her teeth in annoyance. “I can’t stand the way they fight. For whatever reason it was, it’s all very stupid.”

Anaya leaned back in her seat, her brow furrowed as she lowered her gaze to the carpeted floor. Deep in thought, she wondered about the two victims of a growing, violent rivalry between her people and the local lawless Yoruba youths and her heart twisted in pain, as if recalling that Tunde Halliday was a Yoruba man…

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